Pollie's Testimony

I grew up in a Christian home and have been attending church for as long as I can remember.
I've known all the stories and memorized scripture since I was 6 years old, but it never really became part of my life until junior high

I became a Christian as a teenager, and led worship, but had a separate church life and personal life

I became involved with the Navigators in university, and decided to make God the centre of my life, and started to share my faith. I believed that all I had was God's and that I needed to discover His purpose for my life. (I could actually write a whole book about "the plan", as I called it, and how hard the thing was to actually surrender. It took me 3 years and I only had it half-surrendered)

When I came to Australia, I made a committment to abstain from boys and memorize scripture, as well as practicing spiritual disciplines and building a stronger connection with God through prayer, deciding that what I wanted to do with my life was watch God at work and compose devotionals, write songs based on scripture, and use my experiences to build others up

I realized last month that all of the searching, praying, God-centered living, christian community, and scripture could very well be nothing more than a good way to enjoy peace and purpose on this earth, but might not be true. The Bible could be nothing more than a set of instructional stories meant to teach a certain group of people the appropriate values and lifestyle at the time, and modern Christianity could simply be a way to brainwash our youth.
Have you ever questioned the idea that we can have eternal life? Doesn't that seem like something less likely than crystal healing, talking to aliens from outer space, paying a telephone psychic to describe your future husband? Where do we, as people, draw the line between reality and wishful thinking?